what having depression feels like

last week i got a call from the doctor.

‘tell me what’s wrong,’ he said.

i took a deep breath —

and it all started spilling out like someone had turned a tap on somewhere deep within me.

‘i’m so tired,’ i said.

‘and i don’t know why i’m tired, because i don’t do anything other than lie in bed.

but i don’t think i’ve felt anything other than exhaustion in a long, long time.’